I would have liked to be with friends, but I spent this evening at home because over the past few days I've been ill with a chest infection. It wasn't too bad, though. I made fajitas, watched Freaks and Geeks, and finally checked out the new Julie Doiron album.
2012 was a great year. In fact, it was definitely the best for me so far. I was blessed with so many opportunities. I'm not sure how comfortable I feel about using the word "blessed" when I consider its literal sense, but I can't really think of an alternative at the moment. My language assistantship in Austria was one of the most valuable experiences of my life in terms of personal development and knowing what it is that I want - and of course, geographically, it was so easy to do more travelling than ever in my life. I went to so many great concerts and forged so many great friendships. It seems now like I had left all the terrible stuff in 2011 and although there have been some challenges this year, they've never seemed utterly insurmountable in ways that they have in previous years.
I have just two resolutions:
- Be less of a cringey person. It's very vague, and hard to define. I mean that I should stop doing things that make me realise how awkward I can be. I've improved, definitely - a friend actually remarked on this recently. There is nothing wrong with being "awkward" (an overused word these days if ever there were one) if it's just amusing. But sometimes it causes me to beat myself up a bit and I think I need to be a lot more self-aware. People have said that I can be quite hard to read. At times, I will think, but sort of forget that I haven't said it out loud. So in a more general sense, I think that this mantra could also generally mean that I become more straightforward with what I want, leaving no room for misunderstandings. Alright, it's 7am and I've been awake practically since this time yesterday morning, so this is the best way I can begin to explain it.
- Spend next New Year's Eve in a different timezone. Very simple. At this point in time, I have no way of knowing where I'll be, but I hope I'll either be living outside of the United Kingdom or at least have the funds to go somewhere else to celebrate.Actually, the one exception here would be Iceland, since it's on GMT too, and that is one of my dream destinations and I certainly wouldn't be complaining if I found myself there.